June 5, 2014-Thursday. Today Bill had surgery at McKay-Dee hospital today. A few weeks ago Bill complained of a sharp pain on his back. When I looked he had 2 sores, I told him to get into the dermatologist. They did biopsies which showed melanomas. They sent him to a general surgeon Dr. Jordan on Tuesday June 3 and surgery was scheduled June 5. Bill went to the hospital at 7:30 am for sentinel node mapping. I was scheduled to work 11-7:30. Bill had gone into surgery at 10:30 after an hour I checked with OR and they informed me that they had to go in and take lymph nodes on both axillary sites. They had another 1.5 hrs and were just starting on Bills back. After surgery I spoke with Dr Jordan he said it was unusual for nodes to have cancer on both sides of arm pits. We don't know what kind of cancer it is or the stage until the pathology report comes back. I M not over reacting yet till I have more information. In the meantime, Bill recovered with some nausea and vomiting. I brought him home and he slept for awhile. Informed the kids and parents of Bills status.

Today is Sunday - June 1,2014. We kept busy on Sat May 30th by cleaning out the garage. I did put all of Chiquita's things away. It made me too emotional to keep looking at them. I still have my crying spells. This morning I slept till noon. I go to bed thinking about Chiquita and I wake up with her on my mind. Thinking about all the memories I have of her in our family. People have been so nice in trying to get me interested in another dog. But I don't want another dog I just want Chiquita. She was made for our family. I think everyday will get easier to deal with the loss. I just need time.

Landon bought a 2008 Rs4 Audi v 8. He loves it. I spent the day with him. It helped to keep my mind off of Chiquita. May 29, 2014.

We had planned to put Chiquita asleep on May 29,2114-Thursday. The day after Memorial Day the 26th-Tuesday I felt like today was the day. Chiquita cough and congestion had become worse over the past few months, nothing was helping her. But on Monday night the 25th she was quiet in the night at times we thought she had passed. Tues I got up to get ready for work and usually she will come into the bathroom and see me. She just sat on her chair in our room looking out the window. Her eyes and mannerism seemed different to me. I said Chiquita is it time? I felt in my heart that somehow she was saying yes with her eyes. I called the vets office and they said they would make an exception for us an d set the time for 1045. I called Landon( who was on his way home from his 6th night shift). I called Bill and he said he would be home at 9. I called off work ( they understood). Chiquita ran down stairs coughing and greeted Landon and Bill. Chiquita played for a full half hour with us without coughing once. She brought all of her toys out to play. She ran around and played like a puppy again as if she did not have lung cancer. We gave her chocolate which is her favorite treat. We were emotional especially me, I was crying and loving her. We got in the car and I held her in the back seat. I rolled day the window and let her put her head out. But before we played with her I took her for her last walk around the block. It was a beautiful sunny day ( a Chiquita day). When we got to the vets office Landon carried her in and then he got emotional and handed her to Bill. Chiquita started coughing again. We went into an exam room after I took care of the Bill. Dr Maxwell was sweet with Chiquita. I was holding her for as long as I could. He explained what would happen. Bill,Landon and I stood by Chiquita while we were holding hands. The tech held Chiquita, the Dr. Shaved her arm and missed the I V. Chiquita was sweet with then and looked at us as if to say "it's alright". After the IV was started he gave her the medicine and she went to sleep within 15 seconds- Chiquita was gone. Her eyes stayed open. I began crying really hard and then I began kissing and petting her and asking her to come back. We stayed for awhile and covered her body with the blanket she was laying on. She went very peaceful and fast. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I cryed the rest if the day. Did not sleep that night. I felt like I saw Chiquita everywhere. We love her and we will miss our baby forever. The only peace I get is knowing she does not have to cough and suffer anymore. Chiquita was born September 2001 and passed away May 27, 2014. We gave her a wonderful life of 14 years and she gave us back her love, friendship and loyalty. I know we will get to be with her again in the next life. We want her to always be with us so she will be creamated and we will put her Ashes in an urn. I had a ceramic paw print made. I want to make a memorial for her with a poem , pic and toy in it. I love you Boo Boo.